Urm,

1st and foremost, che, ( so formal. lolx )

If you wanna read, don't 'dulan' ( not syok ).

When you started to read the first word of my post below, NO MALAY, NO CHINESE, NO INDIAN, OKAY? We are MALAYSIANS. 1 Malaysia, get me?

Well.

yesterday my history teacher asked all my malay friends to pray what what " sembahyang hajat ", and asked them to pray many many times.

she said after praying, can score better and the questions that they wished to come out will come out.( well. don't misunderstood. I mean some sort like that, not exactly like that, okay? )

Initially, I thought she would ask me and another Indian friend to pray for ourselves too because she is always very fair.

But it seemed like we were transparent.

The tone that she used to talk , made me thought like only Malays can be successful.

Hahaa!

No big deal lah.

I just feel like don't need to tell all these things during the class.

Because there's always someone who is so sensitive like me.

I can't listen to that kind of stuff.

It makes me jealous of them.

Like , ONLY malay can score better.

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I feel like crying after hearing that.

A kind of depression in me.

Like only SHE can be the top student.

And I'm like.........err, well. whatever.

What I'm hoping here is , the teacher should say like she will pray for everyone.

Not only malays, please lah.

1 Malaysia, can or not?

At least like my class teacher when I was in standard 6,

she prayed for everyone.

She asked me to pray everyday too.

I felt like I was one part of them.

2ndly,

My m0m is not a teacher. ( I'm not blaming her. I can't do anything with it since being a teacher is not my m0m's dream.Hahaa )

My friends' m0ms are teachers.

So, something will always pop out from my mind which is teachers' daughters or sons can get more tips. They will get more than what a 'normal' students will get compared to them.

At my formal school also like that.

It's actually not an uncommon thing for me.

Luckily, my friends' moms are not teaching me. Hahaa !

If not, my marks will sure lesser than hims/hers daughters or sons one.

FYI, My marks are always low lah. Haha ! ( believe it !)

( I didn't mention who is that, don't be offended (: I know a lot of people. Not necessary that it's you ! okay? )

Especially now,

I feel like I'm cheated by my friend actually.

Erm,

What a kind person like me will do is,

when someone is absent on a particular day,

I will tell my friends about what the teachers have taught.

Reversely, my friends won't tell me of course if the same thing happened on me.

Why? Maybe la..maybe they scared I will be better. Haha !

This has been happening since I was young.

Many years have gone, and still it happened.

Ya Allah,( trying to be a Malay ) Haha !

The story was like:

My physics teacher has given them tips by telling them what kind of questions will she set for the trial when I was absent.

Depressively, my friends didn't tell me anything until I asked the teacher.

Then, I feigned to ask my friends again to confirm.

Why I can't get a true friend who can tell me anything, help me, and so on?

>.<

Screw my friends around me.

I feel so speechless right now.

*showing middle finger.

Someone cheated on me that she didn't go for any tuitions except for english.

I actually knew that she went for tuitions.

When I asked her,

she still said no.

Till one day, I accidentally saw her physics tuition notes which she brought it to physics class,

she immediately hide it inside the b00k to avoid me from seeing it.

I just feigned like IDK anything. Hahaa!

Clever leh? xDDDD

Don't forget, I'm a psychologist-to-be. Haha !

I can know what people thinking.

Just kidding lah.

I am observant enough.

I observe people around me.

Even my m0m doesn't quite believe that her daughter is so observant.

Cause sometimes I know what she wants even though she doesn't tell me.

For those who read my post,

don't feel offended.

Again, this is my blog.

I can express anything I want without yours permissions.

Get me?

I can write anything, my stories, even this post can be a fake one.

It depends on you to believe it or not.

And you don't have to give a damn on what I have written, am I right?

Fuck off if you don't like me.

Don't blame me for writing my stories, okay?

You don't have the right to comment bout this also, get me?

It's not yours businesses.

No boycotting please.

Thanks.