Something happened last night which nearly changed my life, again.

I'm feeling too lazy to write everything.

Or

I have to admit that I'm extremely exhausted, seriously.

Should I believe in fate?

Or

I have to start making decision?

Roads sometimes diverge.

Lately, I have been revising my Form 4 literature.

Roads Not Taken. ( not sure whether this is the title )

In this poem,

the writer emphasized on how he has chosen his life.

There were two different roads.

And he picked the one which less people has picked.

He wasn't regret.

Yet, he was curious about what his life was going to be if he didn't pick the one he did.

Now,

I have to make a decision that most probably would change my whole life.

Do I still have feeling for him?

I hope I'm not.

So that,

history would not repeat.

I hate myself pretty much for being so impulsive last night.

What I told him was not the answer from my heart.

I should ask him to ensure his feeling for me.

He said he still have a little.

And I actually had no idea what to reply him.

My mind was totally blank.

I'm tired, immensely.

Why don't we just make an ending?

Simple, right?

Can you please make your decision as fast as possible?

I sometimes feel guilty for my parents.

I'm not a good daughter.

I'm still having late night chats with my friends.

I'm never able to concentrate.

I must have my phone with me.

I hate myself.

I really hate myself for being so dumb-founded.

I just want to get the best in my spm.

To repay my parents.

But, can I?

Is it possible for me to pull it off?

Or else,

I'm going to regret, crying in the midnights, blaming myself for not giving the best shot.

I dare not imagine.

Not even once.

I don't want to see such things happen.

Damn myself.

Exam is still on.

And I'm annoyed with this kind of stupid stuffs.

I shouldn't be like that.

People around me are changing.

To become better, putting their tedious efforts.

While me, sitting in front of this square stuff,

day-dreaming, writing about the vexation of love.

WTH.

Can someone screw me so that I can wake up?

He messaged at the wrong time.

By right, he shouldn't have messaged me.

As what he has promised.

Maybe this is the best.

What has past is past.

Looking forward and not backward is the best way to heal your wound.

I support myself when no one supports me.

I love myself when no one loves me.

I help myself when no one helps me.

I don't give up when people are giving me up.

Depression always approaches me effortlessly.

And I'm so easy to be depressed.

I'm dumb.

Being emo.