I will be stop blogging for a month+.

From the 23rd of October to the 23rd of Nov is exactly a month.

No kidding.

SPM candidates 2010, can you just imagine how the time flies?

It's fast like faster than the hell. ( well, I learnt this from su yen. LOL.)

Erm,

so this one month , what should I do ?

I've no idea.

Butterflies start to creep slowly in my stomach.

The nervous feeling increases from day to day.

I seriously can feel the pressure and tension especially when I see my friend struggle like so-rajin-like-wtf, my heartbeat starts to meningkat secara mendadak.

The atmosphere is very irritating.

When she told me that she sacrificed her time not to watch tv for even an hour,

I was like , " ><" eh, you suda gila ke ape?"

I started to tremble. My days are so evil now. So lifeless.

Because no matter how much I love to study, I will still watch tv for at least an hour.

It's impossible for me to not to watch tv at all.

It's kinda torturing myself. I won't do that.

At times, I would shout :" Saye nak mati lah !!!! " ><" duh !"

It just pops up from my mind like that.

I'm fatigued of studying.

Simultaneously, I cannot stop watching tv.

You know what series I watch now?

104-channel Ria. Every weekday- from 6.30pm-7.30pm.

I watch INDON's series.

The actors and actresses are extremely so-good-looking.

I can't forget Galang.( The most handsome guy in the series. HAHA )

LOL.

Hypothesis: Semakin dekat nak exam, semakin relax saye.

Inference: Ke-relax-san saya depends on the tempoh masa for exam to come.

Conclusion:I really don't know what I should do now.

Can someone guide me, please?

I need some guidance.

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And the worst is I just realised that I don't know so many things.

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Now, the subjects that I'm confident with are

BM, BI, Maths,Additional Mathematics( Waa, first time I write add maths accurately)

Cos I will write add maths as ( + mads ) LOL, Moral, Sejarah, and Chemistry.

Physics and Bio still no-no.

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I hate Bio.

I should have taken Lukisan Kejuruteraan.

wth.

What's done cannot be undone.

I hate physics and bio to the max.

I cannot understand the concepts no matter how hard I've tried to understand it.

Initially, I mean each time before I start to revise, I really have the strength to do the best.

Finally, it turned out to be like the book was trying to understand me.

It almost studied my face so well as my head was on it. LOL.

My lovely parents, just want to tell you that, you're superb.

No one can replace you.

I have no time to worry about how I will disappoint you later,

yet I will do my best part and strive for the best.

I know I have told this for about 25468413546545 times.

Still I will say it.

Like Justin Bieber's saying : Never say never. I love this song. Whenever I feel down and less motivated, I will involuntarily listen to this song. The nicest song ever.

Well.

I cannot blame the teachers in school for not teaching us.

Cos the exam is near, I can't talk bad things about them.

But still, I have to tell the truth.

We're still using BI textbook now and have not even started doing the past year questions.

I don't know what's wrong with the teacher. But I respect her so much as her English is really awesome.

I think, by right, we should have finished all the past year questions by now.

And about add maths,

my teacher is good.

He's definitely a very good teacher.

But , he's just a bit ego.

At times, when I found out his small mistakes on the whiteboard, I tried to interrupt him, but he insisted not listening to me and kept on teaching.

Since that day, I told myself not to be so 38.

Don't tell him his mistakes and just let him wasting his and our time.

That day, my friend was asking me to tell him his mistake cos we both realised the mistake he made.

I told my friend that I won't tell.

Just let him discover his mistake himself and I think he might feel much better in such way.

I cannot control people's mind, what to do?

One thing I realised here is don't bother about other people's business unless they are asking for your help.

We just need to do our part as good as possible.

Bear in mind.

Now, I feel really best in my sejarah and maths class.

Cause many types of questions are given to us.

I believe practice makes perfect.

and I can tell they are the most responsible teachers now.

I like them.

They give me confidence.

I used to be the worst for my sejarah.

But now, with Mr. SR's and my class teacher, Puan Norlyzan's guidance,

I have no fears in history anymore.

Despite of the annoying facts that I need to memorise mati mati, I actually have buried interest in studying this subject.

Thanks to these two teachers.

I promise to improvise a song for you two later on after spm.

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For bio,

my primary maths teacher's wife is my bio teacher.

She's an greatly a diligent teacher.

Despite of her rajiness, I'm sorry to say, I only can manage to understand 1/10 from what she taught.

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Am Sorry.

My fault. I couldn't concentrate especially when I know we would enter a dark room ( the lab ) to study.

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That's why my bio suck.

My physics also the same.

But I love the teacher.

She's cute.

I know she loves me too. LOL. perasan.

Lastly,

just

PEACE.